What a difference a year makes...

So, it has been almost a year since my reallyprettyface has shared anything here. The theme of 2011 (as decided on New Year's Eve by another awesome girl named Lauren) was "make better bad choices" and as ridiculous as that sounds, I think I really lived up to my resolution. Did I make awesome choices in 2011? Not always. Did I make better BAD choices in 2011 than 2010? Absofuckinglutely! And sometimes in life, all you can really hope for is better bad choices. So as 2011 winds down and we prepare for all the glory that will be (hopefully?) in 2012, let's reflect. 2011 has been quite a year. First and foremost, I became a registered nurse! That was a pretty big milestone for me. I also started my Master's, worked at the health center on campus for awhile (and learned that EVERYONE has an STD, or so it seems), got my first real nursing job - that was AMAZING - bought a new car that I am still in love with, joined a water-ski lake and got to reconnect with a hobby that I LOVE and makes me happy, met some new amazing people (nurses and newscasters!), moved into an apartment with my bestie (good-bye mom and dad! I love you, but I shouldn't live with you), and I now have a little chubby man who completely stole my heart...my nephew. Overall, pretty incredible stuff going on in 2011. And, while I tend to find myself stuck in a black cloud lately because I am working full time in a pretty stressful job, and doing a full time Master's that I don't exactly enjoy, and doing a ridiculous amount of hours for school outside of class and work...if I step back I can appreciate all the good things that have happened. And the BEST thing is that in May I will be done with my Master's, and for the first time in 3 years I'll be able to enjoy having free time, and a life outside of school and work...woo-hoo!
I also had a dating epiphany this week. One of my friends has been trying to convince me for a few months now that my problem is I get too attached to people I have sex with. Obviously, the person with this opinion is a male. I listened and wasn't exactly swayed by his opinion, but it did give me something to think about. And while dating in 2011 hasn't been as big of an effing mess as it was in 2009/2010, it was by no means a pretty sight. So after mulling that tid-bit of advice over in my head for awhile, I realized getting attached to people I sleep with isn't the problem, sleeping with people I shouldn't get attached to is THE PROBLEM. Why is it that I do that? I tend to allow myself to be in situations where the person I am dating isn't really someone I should date because they aren't looking for a relationship, or they're too selfish to be in a relationship, or they don't want a relationship with me - only sex. And you know what, that's not what I am looking for, so why do I do that? Self-sabotage perhaps? I haven't totally figured that part out yet. So, new goal for 2012: relationship before sex. No more sleeping with people I can't/shouldn't get attached to. It is time to stop sabotaging my dating life and give myself the opportunity to find someone who might actually CARE about me. Interesting concept huh? Wish me luck ;)